This has been a winter of sickness. Each child succumbing at different times to the virus. Going down like dominoes. Patience is called for and my tank is running on empty. I lose control of my days and my to do list. I cannot enjoy adult conversation, outings and the like. My nights are disrupted, sleep is patchy and scarce.
It is hard to remain robust on days like these. It is hard to stay calm and speak with love, kindness and understanding. I know I am not alone. So many of you have been nursing sick kids, others have been on the roller coaster of more serious life threatening illnesses. We all have our own battles. I know there are those doing it harder than me and I am thankful that mine will pass, soon.
I am encouraged knowing that there is a God walking each step alongside of me – He is not distant, wary or cautious around my grumpy, discouraged heart. He is eager, generous and gracious. More of Him will fill my tank, more time to recall the important things in life will restore my faith.
Do you ever wonder what life would be like if there were a few of you? A you to love your man, a you to care for the kids, a you to climb the corporate ladder, a you to create and make, a you to be the domestic goddess, a you to keep house, a you to exercise and work out, a you to meditate and pray, a you to keep in touch with family and friends. Sometimes there seems to be not enough hours in the day to do what we have to do. Never enough space to reflect on the various roles we have, tasks we need to complete.
There are 7mouths to feed in my home and each of us has physical needs (food, clothes, shelter) and emotional/spiritual needs (love, hope, grace, faith) to nurture. And most days I feel as though I am failing…..slowly. I yearn for time out, time away, just a small space of quiet and peace. Even to go to the bathroom along some days would suffice. Yet it all seems far from reach.
This image of a woman cloned in order to be mega productive is funny for sure. We all dream of having one of us for all the different tasks we are called to complete. But somehow cloning for the kingdom does not make sense. He has made one of us, in His image to do the best we can, by His Grace, for His Glory.
2 Corinthians 12:9
9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.